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Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Life

It doesn't get any easier, I keep imagining that she will come bounding through the front door any minute telling me all about her day and what she did. She isn't coming back though is she, not now, not ever...............
Life moves along, each day just like the last nothing special.  I get up and do what it is I have to do, then go to bed.  I am sure that life is going to get a little easier eventually, that is what I hope for.  We had a service at church on Sunday talking about why God does bad things to good people.  Basically the answer is - "we will never know until we come face to face with God then everything will become clear"  I hope he has a good explanation as to why he is taking these beautiful children away from their families.  I found out that two more children that Emma and I got to know during her treatment have just passed as well.  They say things happen in threes, well there they are.  Emma, Renae and James.  Cancer - you need to go die and rot in HELL.........

We go on our cruise this coming Saturday. I should be excited but how can I be happy that our gorgeous little girl will not be there with us. This is the cruise that she wanted to do. 

I have started scrapbooking again.  It has proven to be a great way of escaping the everyday crap. I will share my creations with you shortly.

God Bless

6 comments:

Unknown said...

Thinking of you . Sally Anne Bennett x

Allison Winchester said...

whenever I read your blog posts I want to say something comforting, something loving and provide answers. I can't provide answers because as you learnt in your church on the weekend that only God knows and sometimes it can be so hard to trust in him but at the end of the day we know he loves us.

I just want you to know that I look out for your blog posts because you are so honest....and this is a great thing to be. God is listening and hears your cries, frustrations and hurt. Don't feel like you have to enjoy your cruise....let it be whatever you want it to be....and take rest in God.

I am so glad God drew me to your post a while back on scrap of faith!! xxoo

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

I love you and I hurt for you daily....

Kelly said...

Oh Leanne - Enjoy your special trip away, she will be there in spirit. Sending you much love xxx

Tammy Templeton said...

Hi leanne. I have just spent an hour reading through your posts and all the amazing, wonderful and fun things that you and your family have done over the last twelve months. I'm not sure why God called Emma back to heaven so young and why he choose to make her journey such a difficult one? I can not even begin to imagine your hearts pain but I want you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts. I believe that Emma packed a lifetime of love and a hearts full of happiness into her life with you all. ((((Tam)))

Amanda Davis said...

Leanne, I followed you back in 2010 when there was an internet flutter to send your sweet baby girl letters of encouragement with stickers and goodies, to boost her spirits. Me along with some other friends did send her love but I am ashamed to say that I haven't visited your page in awhile. I just now returned again and was saddened to see that Emily lost her battle just a couple of months ago. I want you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers because I can only imagine how hard every day is for you all. Your daughter was loved; I am absolutely sure of it. I sit here wondering why this happens but we don't know God's plan, as confusing as it sometimes can be.

I hope that you guys have fun on your cruise and celebrate the memory of your sweet angel, who I am sure would want you to enjoy your trip.

Lamentations 3:22-26; 31-32
For the Lord does not abandon anyone forever. Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion according to the greatness of his unfailing love."